"Fusion" and fear

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"Fusion" - Watercolor on 300g/m2 / 140 lbs Hahnemühle paper40 x 40 cm / 15,7 x 15, 7 in

I find that Jackson Pollocks quote (see full quote in the side bar) "the painting has a life of it's own.." is so very true. Especially when I work with watercolor I try to let the painting come through, to let the water and the pigments do the work and just be there to give the first impulses and then during the process, only when needed.

This painting will enter a group ad of Daily Painters Abstract Gallery which will appear in the October issue of AAC American Art Collector, and I'm very excited about that. I'm aware of the fact that I have to let go of the fear of not having enough time to paint if I work on my art-marketing, because if I don't communicate people will not have to occasion to see what I'm doing here.

Sure, it's difficult to stay concentrated, focused, to regularly get out a blogpost and talk to the people you like, when life is so demanding and you want to do EVERYTHING today. Wanting to do everything today is a good basis to go nuts.

For example, today I'm packing for holidays. My husband, the cat and I are going to Germany for a month. Oscar the cat went into retreat under the bed as soon as he saw us open our suitcases...he doesn't like travelling that much, but he sure does like my parent's garden:)

Pure holiday. We will visit my parents, help them a bit in the house and the garden, read and walk and ride our bycicles.

Great. But I will have to work too. Prepare an exhibition of a collection of Metroheadsprints which will take place in September in the Paris Bistro-Restaurant TITON. This shouldn't be a problem cause computer work is involved and I'll take my laptop with me and my camera, so I can stay in touch with YOU too.

But, and that's a big BUT, I'd also like to continue my bark paper paintings and big watercolor paintings and NO WAY because can't take the equipment. I only have space for little things ARRRRG. You see? I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about...It's the fear of never being able to do everything which has to be done.

So you have to reason yourself: lean back, take a calm look on what you really need: a notebook, a pad of bigger watercolor paper, a pen and a little watercolor box. That's it. Be simple. Cause at the end you will enjoy to NOT do anything "important", just let things be and doodle along. Which is good for the soul and the creative mind. Then, towards the end of the holidays, you'll begin to make plans again and lots of new ideas AND energy will come flying in your direction:)

OKOKOK. That decided, I'll go and have lunch now, (Oscar the cat already had his lunch, each Saturday and Sunday he is offered a special treat: half a little can of thuna:)

Have a great creative weekend and enjoy every minute of it:)
love
Andrea